turning point.

In order to pay off debt changes have to be made.  More money needs to come in. It's time to do what needs to be done to get things in order.  Sacrifice.  All that.

I searched online.  job bank.  hospital.  The only thing I came up with was Target.  I'm sure it had NOTHING to do with the target discount. Floor job... go in at night a straighten clothes.  I did that as a teenager.  brainless.  doable.  I even started the online application.  I got two pages in...and then I remembered something....something dreadful....something absolutely horrible...a game changer.  I had to click "cancel".  I remembered that they have to wear khaki pants!  I hate khaki pants.

So instead I put a post on Craig's List for a small artist studio.  If I actually treat my creative outputs as a job I would actually do it.  Having a place that wasn't my dining room table to work.  A place that wasn't three feet from the living room couch and tv.  Maybe this will be my turning point.  And I can say that it was all because of khaki pants.

down to one hand.

I have been working on my craft show for months now.  Yesterday I clicked "this week's events" on facebook and freaked out a bit inside when it popped up!  I feel like I've done all I can do.  I wish I could advertise more in the cities but I just can't go up again this week.  Praying that tons of people show up.  Hoping that all of my vendors have a good time.  That the lighting is sufficient for everyone.  I want to create stuff to sell there but I'm out of energy.  Last night I started a felt picture.  It's not finished yet, but fits into an antique, white frame... I think I'm going to add "fly" to it in the upper left corner with some other media source.

a little convincing.

All year the kids talk about what they want to be for halloween.  It's not a huge "holiday" for us but dressing up as something cool and getting more candy than should be legally allowed... I get it.  And I use it as an excuse to be my creative energy.  Which brings me to my challenge this year... getting my five year old who wants to be "Dark Baddar" and my three year old daughter who wants to be princess jasmine to change their minds and be something creative... something I can make.

It wasn't as hard as I feared. My sister purchased my niece a Dorothy dress... you see where I went with that...

A Year in the Life.

A year of silence and things are churning.   I didn't really create anything this year.  I wasn't in any shows besides selling a few old things at Worship@8500 in Colorado.  But I have created The Handmade Christmas-- Craft Fair.  46 vendors in St Paul.  I'm working on advertising right now.

It has solidified my desire for a storefront.  It feels like it's more in the making than ever, although there's really nothing physically present outside my mind.  The storefronts for rent on main are drying up... it makes me anxious.  The only one left I've heard is astronomical.  I called for info and waiting for them to get back.  It all has to happen at the same time which when mixed with too much coffee makes me completely high strung and not good for anything. Just trying to take deep breaths and slow down. Enjoy the process and trust that if it's to happen then what I need will be available when I need it.

when you gonna come home...

"when will the heavy rains come...
when will the clearing of my fields be done?"

The Emporiums (Karla Adolphe and Aaron Stumpel)

I just got my hands on their album mere hours ago.  Some wonderful songs.

I am bringing her to town in May.  just fantastic.

two more

These latest treasuries are my favorites so far that I've been included in.

www.etsy.com/treasury/4d50a4ebfba98eefe9c8f276/love-is-in-the-air

 www.etsy.com/treasury/4d4e0c91cd456d91bc8e0aa0/this-will-lead-me-back-to-you

 

wastin' it.

I get frustrated with myself when I waste precious creating time.  Lately I've been so tired at night that I can't do anything but lay on the couch.  But tonight I was actually feeling a little creative.  Instead of getting something out I ended up searching the internet for metal cardette holders or clips.  None to be found... and I did spend hours looking. 

I'm also trying to process my thoughts on my desires to do something bigger(today it was brought on by seeing a storefront for sale)... do I want a store that sells handmade stuff? occasion shop? a craft class shop? a combination?  What part of it seems the most fun to me? Creating myself? Creating a fun shop atmosphere? Composing an ongoing craft class schedule with various artists?  Which part would get old fast?  If I spend most of my time with other people's stuff I won't have time to do my own projects.  It's an idea that doesn't leave me alone... I just really don't know it's context.